Saturday, May 17, 2008
/just read weiqing's blog and this actually made me think;
i hope i got her permission to quote :D
'I was in Primary Three, and at that time, I had like random groups of friends I hang out with. I was with this group I sort of classify as the "hang out but not close friends" group when they started ganging up and teasing me, probably because I was one of the few that could handle insults/teasings without bearing a grudge or getting pissed or whatever. Like I'm some pushover or something.
It got so bad I was almost on the verge of tears, even though they were obviously playing around. What really got to me is this utter sense of helplessness and humiliation when NO ONE, and I mean NO ONE, in the group attempted to stand up for me. If I had started crying there and then, it would be way worst than it already was. So I actually laughed along with them.
And then somone put a Ferrero Rocher on my head. I was seriously very very hurt. I pretended to need to pee, and I hid in the toilet and cried until they left. Not one of them asked me what was wrong. Not one of them suspected I was upset about whatever shit they were doing.
I think ever since then I have this morbid deja vu when something like this happens (ganging up and starting to become all offensive) I know this sounds damn cheesy and emo, but you just really get this feeling like even though you have a considerable amount of friends, at that very moment you feel so... alone and helpless. There's really literally no one for you in this world."
Weiqing, maybe this will make you feel better, cause this actually mirrors me.
not pointing out names or whatever, but i actually feel like that.
i'm still thankful for those true
friends for even respecting them so i guess i should feel blessed anyoldhow.
(weiqing tell me if you want this post removed okay? i'll gladly do so cause though i am blogging for my own sake its not going to be a very good memory)
;JOLYNEEEE!.
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